Why Do I Blog?

why do i blog? thats a question which was posed to me the other day. "why do you blog?" he wanted to know. "it seems to me that people blog for 2 reasons. either they feel a need to tell everyone what goes on in their life, or else they feel they have something to say."

do i agree with that? yes, i suppose i do. what other reason would there be to blog? either you feel that you possess some information that should be passed on, or you need to tell everyone what's happening in your life.

which category do i fall into? why do i blog? i dont know. its not to tell people the details of my life, as to be honest, i really can't. too many people read this. too many people who all know different sides of me. who all know "zena" from one small perspective. who all know multiple things about me, with no 2 people knowing exactly the same things. mother, sister, cousins, friends from all over the world, people ive dated, people im dating, people i may yet date, university friends, school friends, religious friends, those for whom the dancefloor is the new temple and pills the new bread. there are too many, and so in order that i keep myself in relatively safe waters, i just cannot blog about everything going on in my life.
personally, i wouldn't want to. some things are better kept private.

so why do i blog? maybe i feel i have something to say. maybe deep within me i feel there lies some secret to which only i hold the key. i do feel i have something to say. i havent said it yet. i dont know what "it" is. maybe "it" is this. these random posts that seem to mean nothing. maybe, like life, the journey is the destination. but its there. and its slowly coming out. there are things about this world i want to change. things i need to change. maybe thats where this desire to blog stemmed from. the dissatisfaction for the way things are in this world. the belief that i, one person, can change things. i can only try, and i can only blog. blog with no set reason, and with no predictable result. a random, all over the place blog, that gives you a small insight into the randomness that has become my life, and an even smaller insight into the craziness of my thoughts, in the hope that in taking the long way round, ill reach the point that im so desperately trying to reach.

maybe thats the reason.